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老头突然的血液病毒感染，住了医院，已经是一个多月之前的事情了，上周出院了，然后就开始折腾人了，还要每天早上带他去医院打针，我的计算看来，他还不如再住两个星期呐，光油费估计都有200多，老妈肯定不能送了，要上班，那就是我了，没工资的2周短工私家司机，给路上还唧唧歪歪的，老子又不是不能开高速，都跑到快80了，却突然从昏睡中醒来，给我来个，不允许你跑过70，丫的是你开车还是我开啊，回头你自己开着去医院得了，NND，感情就是扯淡，你丫的背痛，是你不想活动复健，别跟我面前天天吆喝啊，一天什么都没做，从医院回来，就躺那了，就这么一天过去了，从医院回来还一直吆喝着累死了累死了，丫的你在医院有床躺，老子坐板凳，你累死了，那好吧。 我是不是太苛刻了？？ 哎，年纪是大了点儿，70多了吧，但是和我爷爷相比，还不如我爷爷呐，跟我爷爷差多了，感觉老头儿好嫩啊，还每天不停的找这个找那个诉苦什么的，哭着个鼻子，我感觉说出这样的话，好没同情心啊，O.O 忒没热心了，的确，貌似我就是个这么没有热心滴人呐。还要继续再折腾我一个星期，这段时间功课什么的都没赶上，折腾吧，把我折腾蔫儿得了。

要开学了，今天买了好多课本回来，要上课了，先要温习一下课本了，N久不看书的我，对英文又是半懂不懂的，需要一个随手字典哈。

幸好还有我的iphone，不过以前用1.1.4固件的时候还好，WeDic不要钱，现在2.0固件了，竟然增加了个WeDic Pro版本，好处是可以自己任意从网上下载添加字典，而且预先装好的有英–中和英–英字典，价格是6美金，像我这种穷人买的起iphone买不起App的人就只好找破解的来用喽。

今天把里脊排拿了出来，实在是真难切，筋好多，然后切了三根红萝卜片，第一次切诶，感觉像是天生的，越切手越顺，材料都准备好了（料酒，醋，酱油，尖椒，萝卜片，肉片+块，切好的葱），做完之后，感觉是放的料还是有点少，三根红萝卜感觉有点少咧，味道还过得去哈，尖椒放进去，味道是蛮不错的哈，蒸了米，原以为这里的米应该没有多少石子，然后淘米就草草滤过，谁知道最后吃亏的还是自己，下次一定淘米两遍，淘一遍就让我吃了一个石子。总的来说还算成功，真不知道自己哪里学来的手艺，估计是，原本不会，看得多了也就会了。

头发太长了实在忍受不了了，直接自己用推子搞定了，看起来还好。时差仍然倒不过来，如果晚上9点睡觉，自然而然的凌晨2点钟会起床，并且一直到8点才会有睡意，一旦睡去，再次起床估计就是下午2点了，准备买药搞定此事。

最近又是越来越闷了，新机器装好了，改弄得东西都弄好了，闲下来了又，出去找工，都没什么消息，烦啊。 暑假过后开始上学，2年时间对我来说是奢侈了，但是我想在两年的时间里做多一些的事情，因为我放纵自己的时间是在太长了。自己仍然是那么的漫无目的，一个毫无用处的人，没人会喜欢他的，念书对我来说已经完全失去了兴趣，但是我没有出路，没有的选择，如果没有知识，谁会认可你呢。学一门可以拿得出的手艺，找门做的来的工作，找个合得来的佳人，买栋住得起的房子，开辆看得上的小车，造一个了不起的小人儿，建一个称得上的家，这一生应该就会这么的完了。不在奢侈什么了，因为奢侈的已经太多了，不愿再奢侈什么了，因为对我来说，已经不能再奢侈了。对时间的奢侈，对理想的奢侈，没有时间倒退那么幼稚的想法，没有中千万头奖乐透的可能，因为你仅仅是那么平凡的一个人，并不是那么特殊，而且是那么颓废的一个人。

Finially, I’m back to LA now. I was staying at friend’s house in Vancouver and we had fun. I like the weather in Vancouver, low tempature and lots of rain from October to April. I love rainny days.

China, my mother land, I really don’t know when I’m going there again, maybe after I have my citizenship of the U.S. I had lots of fun while I was in China, with my family and friends. I felt that place was no longer fit me anymore, lots of strangers and strange things, hadn’t back for about 4 years, she changed a lot. I even didn’t have a chance to meet her who I liked most. She’s in another city, I could’t go over there. All those years, the only thing that I contact with her is to chat with her over the internet and watching her in the cam, I still don’t know how she felt about me, I loved her, but the feeling is going lower and lower, I even don’t how I feel now. Its to far away, and I can’t make any promises, she should choose what’s best for her. I should forget that kind feeling. Gosh, lets talk about something else, this is so boring.

Actually, I didn’t go to lots of places, just Beijing and my home town ZhengZhou, both grown pretty fast and getting biger and biger. I stayed in Beijing for my aunt’s wedding, she’s so beautiful during that day, and its a pretty nice day. My aunt’s husband is so funny.

I met my Gran, she looks still, but from her movement, not good as before. She was so happy to see me again, she is 75. She always thought she would never saw me again before she dead. I think I was right, I didn’t tell her when I left her and going to LA, otherwise she would so sad, but she still was sad and mad of me about I left her without telling her. At my age of 10, she was like both mother and Gran of me. I lived with her for 8 years. From her, I learned a lot. But now, I have to left again for my future, I have to stop fooling around and do something that I can have my dreams come true.