半吊子 Weblog

Finially, I’m back to LA now. I was staying at friend’s house in Vancouver and we had fun. I like the weather in Vancouver, low tempature and lots of rain from October to April. I love rainny days.

China, my mother land, I really don’t know when I’m going there again, maybe after I have my citizenship of the U.S. I had lots of fun while I was in China, with my family and friends. I felt that place was no longer fit me anymore, lots of strangers and strange things, hadn’t back for about 4 years, she changed a lot. I even didn’t have a chance to meet her who I liked most. She’s in another city, I could’t go over there. All those years, the only thing that I contact with her is to chat with her over the internet and watching her in the cam, I still don’t know how she felt about me, I loved her, but the feeling is going lower and lower, I even don’t how I feel now. Its to far away, and I can’t make any promises, she should choose what’s best for her. I should forget that kind feeling. Gosh, lets talk about something else, this is so boring.

Actually, I didn’t go to lots of places, just Beijing and my home town ZhengZhou, both grown pretty fast and getting biger and biger. I stayed in Beijing for my aunt’s wedding, she’s so beautiful during that day, and its a pretty nice day. My aunt’s husband is so funny.

I met my Gran, she looks still, but from her movement, not good as before. She was so happy to see me again, she is 75. She always thought she would never saw me again before she dead. I think I was right, I didn’t tell her when I left her and going to LA, otherwise she would so sad, but she still was sad and mad of me about I left her without telling her. At my age of 10, she was like both mother and Gran of me. I lived with her for 8 years. From her, I learned a lot. But now, I have to left again for my future, I have to stop fooling around and do something that I can have my dreams come true.